Shi* (N and T)

this afternoon, we had a long exam in our philosophy class..as usual..ryuu was the one who finished first and our professor told him
that he can already leave. so he left.

i finished answering after 1 hour, 30 minutes earlier before the dismissal. i
still waited for elise at my seat. i sighed for i thought i could talk to ryuu
after class but it's the other way around. i miss my life, totally. i don't know
how could i be closer with him again. tsk..if he didn't just do it in public
and if i'm just an open-minded like everyone else. maybe it's my fault.

at last, elise finished her exam and while preparing her things before we
leave, ryuu came back.with a boquet of tulips. he placed it on my desk,
looked, smiled at me and he left.

what..now?

i looked at the note: " I will love you till the last one dies, my life prince. I
will always love you alone."

MY HEART BEATED SO FAST THAT I JUST WANTED TO BE IN
HIS ARMS AGAIN, TO FEEL HIS WARM TENDER LIPS AND TO
DROWN WITH HIS LOVE AGAIN AND AGAIN.

i looked at elise and she smiled at me. i ran outside the room and looked
for him.

'ryuu, where in the world are you..' i murmured.

and i saw him walking to the parking lot. i smiled and went on that way too
but shi'T', my cousin shi'N' blocked me.

'yo, prince..where are you going?'

'can't you see i'm--ugh, SHIN!!!'

'what? what's yo problem, my dear cousin?' he looked so confused but he
then noticed the boquet of tulips i have. 'wow..for whom are those tulips...?
he grinned

i'm so pissed off so i left him. i went to the parking lot and looked for
ryuu's car and..yeah, i saw his car but he was leaving.

tsk..stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.

shin was behind me and told me to come with him at the fair near our
university. he would be participitang at the road rage: customized car show.i told him i won't come but he insisted and he was just so silly and
persistent that i would come with him. alright, fine..i'll go with him.
we went to the fair as we brought our own cars. i stayed outside my car
doin nothing, shin was lookin at stuffs around the venue. after some time,
he was with someone and they were walking towards me.

'prince, i'm with your boyfriend..ryuuka.' he grinned.

'uh..hi..'ryuu smiled.

i smiled and tried to approach him but shin was busily talking to him.
pff...and they left me. i sighed again and i just listened to my ipod. someone
approached me, and damn it..the lame ass again.

'what?' i asked.

'nothing, i was just lookin around. by the way, can i test drive your car?'

'no.'

'and why?'

'it does not fit you.'

'tsk..you are really full of yourself.'

'get lost.'

'wha..whaaaat?!' he freaked the shit out.

'get...lost, lame..ass.'

his face was just like a monster.haha.funny. tsk..i hour had left and it was
really really boring. i told te cordinator that i'll leave but he told me there's
still an awarding and giving of certificates to the participants. hm, i
participited at the last minute of the rgistration anyways.
but i told him i was really getting bored and pissed off by that lame ass..he
said i'm the winner of the said event, ryuu won the 2nd place and so on..

'just let shuuichi ryuuka win the first prize and, shin the second, please? i'm leavin.'

and i left..i still don't know what's happening in the fair for up to this
time..shin is'nt at home.