Think

i was waiting for that moment.
the family picture of us three..me, ryuu and our baby..
but it was taken for granted.

early in the morning..
i fetch ryuu at his house and we went together at the university.
its just like a cycle..i will fetch him today, he will the nect day..me again on the other day and so on.

after few minutes..we're in the university parking lot..i was the one who first went outside the car and i went on his side and opened the door for him.

'thank you my life..' he said as he stepped outside the car.
and he cornered me suddenly.

'what?' i asked.

'nothing,' he grinned, 'i just want to stare at you for at least a minute'

'not now, my life..it's too public in here. they might think of something--'
'so? say what they want to say..our lives aren't their businesses...and we love each other, any problem with that for them?'

'my point is--'

'please..my life..no more worries for now..besides we are too early here in the campus..' he said confidently.

i sighed and looked around. well, yeah it was early but what if someone sees us?

he still stared at me and..he kissed me. i was a bit shocked so i slightly pushed him away from me.

'what the hell are you doin?!' i said, pissed off.

'i just kissed you,' he came closer to me again.

'but i have told you, ryuu..a million times. NOT IN PUBLIC.'

'i know, my life..but no one has seen us,' he smiled.

'and what if someone sees us? huh?'

'i'll kill him,' he chuckled as if he doesn't care. well, i think he really does not care.

i shooked my head, 'can't you be serious just for this time?'

'but i have--'

'no 'but's' for me, ryuuka. you aen't really thinking.'

'yeah, because you're the only one who's inside my head..' he looked at me and smiled a bit, 'i was just cheeing you up, prince..i just want you to be happy. also..i'm escited about the photoshoot later with our baby'

'not in this way. would you just, stop giving excuses?'

'i'm sorry..'

i looked on the other side..and i sighed again..

'are those 3 words difficult to understand? do you want me to rephrase it for you, huh? tsk..think first ryuuka..before acting upon it.,' and i left him.

for the whole day..i haven't talked to him but he's always around following me. i've decided not to continue the pictorial so i went home by myself. oi don't know how he went home.

at my house..tsk..there was a party..sorry, but ryuuka's not here..i told mom..
she was asking so many questions that i i didn't entertain more of her questions..
she insisted that even without ryuuka, i should have my pictorial with my cousin, ashley..as my bride..what?! so lame! but what can i do? nothing.

stupid. i was really pissed off. even right now. just because of that kiss would ruin my day?and that pictorial? why just can't he understand what i am saying about the not in public thing..-sighs- i just wanted us not be so open to others and to be vulgar.i was just taking care of our relationship.

was that bad?.